Sunday, May 30, 2004
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Dear Amy,
I removed the earlier post with the ad about the house because I don't want this to be a toxic site. This is a site for you, about you, about me, and about computer viruses (for the possible benefit of others who read this). I am weary of her.
I'm going to grill some dinner, and then Laura and I are going to walk down to watch the sun set. You should call. There is not any law which says you can't.
You just have to decide to do it. If she has told you that you can't call me...then call me anyway.
As it is, she suspects that you have already called me - so you might as well just do it. Since she treats you like you ARE guilty, you should have the fun of the "crimes" which she has already decided that you guilty of. You should stand up for yourself and your own rights of self-determination.
For your own well-being and sanity, begin to honor your inner being before she vandalizes it, disfigures it, and obscures your creativity with the spray-painted graffiti of her unique type of personality.
I'd love to hear your voice again.
Gotta go........
With my love,
Bub
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Dear Amy,
I removed the earlier post with the ad about the house because I don't want this to be a toxic site. This is a site for you, about you, about me, and about computer viruses (for the possible benefit of others who read this). I am weary of her.
I'm going to grill some dinner, and then Laura and I are going to walk down to watch the sun set. You should call. There is not any law which says you can't.
You just have to decide to do it. If she has told you that you can't call me...then call me anyway.
As it is, she suspects that you have already called me - so you might as well just do it. Since she treats you like you ARE guilty, you should have the fun of the "crimes" which she has already decided that you guilty of. You should stand up for yourself and your own rights of self-determination.
For your own well-being and sanity, begin to honor your inner being before she vandalizes it, disfigures it, and obscures your creativity with the spray-painted graffiti of her unique type of personality.
I'd love to hear your voice again.
Gotta go........
With my love,
Bub
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Wednesday, May 26, 2004
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Dear Amy,
I just wanted to tell you that I love you, and hope to hear about the events in your life. I want to hear you tell me about the important people and things in your life and I want to hear about you....from you with no spies. Maybe we can talk soon?
I wish you success with your finals, and hope to be able to see you both in person, and photographically soon. It's hard to believe that my "kid" is about to be a senior!!
Photoblog will occur soon.
Love,
Bub
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Dear Amy,
I just wanted to tell you that I love you, and hope to hear about the events in your life. I want to hear you tell me about the important people and things in your life and I want to hear about you....from you with no spies. Maybe we can talk soon?
I wish you success with your finals, and hope to be able to see you both in person, and photographically soon. It's hard to believe that my "kid" is about to be a senior!!
Photoblog will occur soon.
Love,
Bub
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A very happy person from Hong Kong just sent me the following, which he found on a Computer forum hosted in England:
"CoolWWW, about:blank, LopDotCom, Zestyfind, CWS, Startpage.4.ap and virtually all of the other rubbish out there CAN be gotten off of your computer, and CAN be KEPT off your computer. There are several free programmes which are somewhat effective part of the time. There are two programmes which work all of the time. They, however, are not free.
If you go to http://bubdaddy.blogspot.com/ you will find secure links for downloading the free stuff, and secure links to the manufacturers if you want to order the stuff that really works.
See the May 24 and May 25 posts, and also the April 21 post. In fact, visit them in chronological order. There are a lot of photos and personal messages there, but the PC security information is tested, accurate, and reliable.
If you're going the free route, take notice of the difference between MERIJIN.ORG AND MERIJN.org - the former is a conduit to the type of rubbish you're trying to avoid....the latter is the author of COOL WEB SHREDDER. Look VERY closely at the way you type in their address!"
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A very happy person from Hong Kong just sent me the following, which he found on a Computer forum hosted in England:
"CoolWWW, about:blank, LopDotCom, Zestyfind, CWS, Startpage.4.ap and virtually all of the other rubbish out there CAN be gotten off of your computer, and CAN be KEPT off your computer. There are several free programmes which are somewhat effective part of the time. There are two programmes which work all of the time. They, however, are not free.
If you go to http://bubdaddy.blogspot.com/ you will find secure links for downloading the free stuff, and secure links to the manufacturers if you want to order the stuff that really works.
See the May 24 and May 25 posts, and also the April 21 post. In fact, visit them in chronological order. There are a lot of photos and personal messages there, but the PC security information is tested, accurate, and reliable.
If you're going the free route, take notice of the difference between MERIJIN.ORG AND MERIJN.org - the former is a conduit to the type of rubbish you're trying to avoid....the latter is the author of COOL WEB SHREDDER. Look VERY closely at the way you type in their address!"
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Tuesday, May 25, 2004
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Dear Amy~
I was just thinking about you. I was listening to Jimmy Buffett's "Jolly Mon". I really wish that I could write to you directly. Perhaps you will call me sometime.
Last week, and over the weekend, I spoke with friends and ex-neighbors and they provided me with information I had not previously known. I called to ask whether they would be willing to help you if it became necessary.
If I didn't have cause for concern about your well-being, I wouldn't have called those people at all. When I learn that you are in a dangerous or unstable situation, I will always do whatever must be done to help you, while staying in compliance.
Do not allow her to bully you or accuse you of things you didn't do. Her game only works if people are intimidated by her. If you are in the right, and you know that you are right, then state your position and remove yourself from her game. She will simply have to find another victim.
Since there is no restriction on staying in contact with people I like, I still call them, and they still call me. They all know absolutely everything about what's gone on and are amazed that she thinks that she can keep you incommnicado in her bottle forever.
The reality of my life is that I am not interested in my ex-wife and her new husband. I don't want to know ANYTHING about them.
I am only interested in you and in your happiness and well-being.
By keeping you isolated, censored, and repressed she encourages people who remember that I was the parent who cared for you to continue to relay information about you to me.
These friends and neighbors and colleagues tell me things because they are concerned about you. They tell me things because they they care about you, and because they are trying to help you and me.
They know that I have been in shock and grief-stricken because she took you away and has kept you away.
She has been awful enough to me, and horrid enough to you that I have NO interest in anything she and her new husband EVER do. I am concerned for you, and what she might do to you next.
I am weary of her legal wrangling, her sneaking about, and her connivances. I am weary of her in toto. I moved as far away from her as I could get and still remain in the contiguous 48 states.
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It's probably pretty dark there now. The sun is shining brightly through our West windows, and a gentle breeze rustles the palms occasionally. It's really pretty here. It took me a while to get used to it, but I'm well acclimated now, and have even gotten accustomed to the very rude drivers who seem to all be going 90 - 95 mph (literally!). Very few people in California's driver's education program seem to have learned about the little "stick" on the left side of the steering column. I think they hang things from it. They don't use it to signal! They suddenly change lanes and seem to enjoy the terror they inflict on other drivers.
I just get way over to the right, but not all the way to the right because the right lane frequently turns into exits, or ramps leading to Los Angeles. I've been shunted off the freeways and sent toward Mexico, L.A., or Tucson too many times to fall for it anymore.
The number of cars and the frantic pace at which they move is amazing! Huge trucks so big as to be impossible to park, are racing through traffic with tiny, tweaked, hot Hondas and Harley Davidsons with awful, noisy engines. This whole state vibrates with energy.
Speaking of vibrating...I still haven't felt any earthquakes, but I've seen the rest of the country laid to waste by hurricanes, tornadoes, lightning, and floods. I saw WGN news at noon today and saw that your area is pretty soaked and more water is coming your way!
~I love you~
Daddy
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Dear Amy~
I was just thinking about you. I was listening to Jimmy Buffett's "Jolly Mon". I really wish that I could write to you directly. Perhaps you will call me sometime.
Last week, and over the weekend, I spoke with friends and ex-neighbors and they provided me with information I had not previously known. I called to ask whether they would be willing to help you if it became necessary.
If I didn't have cause for concern about your well-being, I wouldn't have called those people at all. When I learn that you are in a dangerous or unstable situation, I will always do whatever must be done to help you, while staying in compliance.
Do not allow her to bully you or accuse you of things you didn't do. Her game only works if people are intimidated by her. If you are in the right, and you know that you are right, then state your position and remove yourself from her game. She will simply have to find another victim.
Since there is no restriction on staying in contact with people I like, I still call them, and they still call me. They all know absolutely everything about what's gone on and are amazed that she thinks that she can keep you incommnicado in her bottle forever.
The reality of my life is that I am not interested in my ex-wife and her new husband. I don't want to know ANYTHING about them.
I am only interested in you and in your happiness and well-being.
By keeping you isolated, censored, and repressed she encourages people who remember that I was the parent who cared for you to continue to relay information about you to me.
These friends and neighbors and colleagues tell me things because they are concerned about you. They tell me things because they they care about you, and because they are trying to help you and me.
They know that I have been in shock and grief-stricken because she took you away and has kept you away.
She has been awful enough to me, and horrid enough to you that I have NO interest in anything she and her new husband EVER do. I am concerned for you, and what she might do to you next.
I am weary of her legal wrangling, her sneaking about, and her connivances. I am weary of her in toto. I moved as far away from her as I could get and still remain in the contiguous 48 states.
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It's probably pretty dark there now. The sun is shining brightly through our West windows, and a gentle breeze rustles the palms occasionally. It's really pretty here. It took me a while to get used to it, but I'm well acclimated now, and have even gotten accustomed to the very rude drivers who seem to all be going 90 - 95 mph (literally!). Very few people in California's driver's education program seem to have learned about the little "stick" on the left side of the steering column. I think they hang things from it. They don't use it to signal! They suddenly change lanes and seem to enjoy the terror they inflict on other drivers.
I just get way over to the right, but not all the way to the right because the right lane frequently turns into exits, or ramps leading to Los Angeles. I've been shunted off the freeways and sent toward Mexico, L.A., or Tucson too many times to fall for it anymore.
The number of cars and the frantic pace at which they move is amazing! Huge trucks so big as to be impossible to park, are racing through traffic with tiny, tweaked, hot Hondas and Harley Davidsons with awful, noisy engines. This whole state vibrates with energy.
Speaking of vibrating...I still haven't felt any earthquakes, but I've seen the rest of the country laid to waste by hurricanes, tornadoes, lightning, and floods. I saw WGN news at noon today and saw that your area is pretty soaked and more water is coming your way!
~I love you~
Daddy
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Update on spyware and adware and trojans:
I disabled GhostSurf Pro so that I could access a site I had told it to block. I forgot to re-enable it. Laura read her email, and a pop-up from the LA Times appeared. She closed it, and I re-enabled GhostSurf Pro. Too late!!
When she tried to go to the internet.........Cool Web Search was waiting there as the new home page.
I used PestPatrol and it found that CWS had installed itself in 2 locations on the hard drive. It took a complete, thorough scan to discover both installations. If you're scanning for pests, update your software before you scan and allow it run until it finishes.
PestPatrol has gotten rid of it again, but I re-learned that it only takes a second or two for that junk to sneak back into your computer!
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Update on spyware and adware and trojans:
I disabled GhostSurf Pro so that I could access a site I had told it to block. I forgot to re-enable it. Laura read her email, and a pop-up from the LA Times appeared. She closed it, and I re-enabled GhostSurf Pro. Too late!!
When she tried to go to the internet.........Cool Web Search was waiting there as the new home page.
I used PestPatrol and it found that CWS had installed itself in 2 locations on the hard drive. It took a complete, thorough scan to discover both installations. If you're scanning for pests, update your software before you scan and allow it run until it finishes.
PestPatrol has gotten rid of it again, but I re-learned that it only takes a second or two for that junk to sneak back into your computer!
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Monday, May 24, 2004
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Dear Amy.
You are the only 17 year old I know who is forbidden to make regular, unmonitored contact with your loving parent, whose incoming mail is censored or thrown away........I'm hoping that you will be able to recover from the things she's put you through.
I wish I could have seen you as you have been growing up these past years. I wish I had been permitted to get calls from you, real letters from you,emails from you, photographs of you and I wish I could have just enjoyed your company and seen you performing at games.........
I really wish we could communicate openly, and I wish that we could be together and just try to rebuild the stolen years. I've never stopped loving you, and will continue to love you as long as I live.
All I want is a normal, unrestricted relationship with you. Your mother can keep all of the things she took from me. I just want a normal relationship with you.
Sometimes it gets very lonely writing here, but I firmly believe that writing here has been therapeutic, and Oprah might even read this and try to contact you!)(hint!)
I get lots of compliments about my photos, and people are very interested in you and "Mommie Dearest". Since we can't communicate freely, this is my only venue for the expression of my thoughts and feelings, hoping that you are able to see what I've written.
Go OPRAH!! I'd love to see the show where Dr. Phil interviews your mother and tries to understand how she thinks that being cruel and abusive to you (and me) will make you a better person!!!
Love,
Daddy
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Dear Amy.
You are the only 17 year old I know who is forbidden to make regular, unmonitored contact with your loving parent, whose incoming mail is censored or thrown away........I'm hoping that you will be able to recover from the things she's put you through.
I wish I could have seen you as you have been growing up these past years. I wish I had been permitted to get calls from you, real letters from you,emails from you, photographs of you and I wish I could have just enjoyed your company and seen you performing at games.........
I really wish we could communicate openly, and I wish that we could be together and just try to rebuild the stolen years. I've never stopped loving you, and will continue to love you as long as I live.
All I want is a normal, unrestricted relationship with you. Your mother can keep all of the things she took from me. I just want a normal relationship with you.
Sometimes it gets very lonely writing here, but I firmly believe that writing here has been therapeutic, and Oprah might even read this and try to contact you!)(hint!)
I get lots of compliments about my photos, and people are very interested in you and "Mommie Dearest". Since we can't communicate freely, this is my only venue for the expression of my thoughts and feelings, hoping that you are able to see what I've written.
Go OPRAH!! I'd love to see the show where Dr. Phil interviews your mother and tries to understand how she thinks that being cruel and abusive to you (and me) will make you a better person!!!
Love,
Daddy
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Sunday, May 23, 2004
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Here's an updated post with new information on:
REG.Startpage.CO trojan
CWS.GoogleMS.3
js.search.cc
about:blank
each of the four items above indicates the presence of trouble in your PC. They are renewed or recycled forms of Cool Web Search, CoolWWW, Zestyfind, and other home page hijackers which never seem to go away. You CAN get rid of them, but be certain that you order the software from SECURE links. Otherwise, you're just downloading more trouble. Only order or download software from the manufacturers. I've placed secure links here to assure that you don't get fooled into downloading viruses or spyware.
I've found and installed a good piece of software which digs out the roots of those pests and quarantines them. It wasn't free but it is very effective. It's called PestPatrol.
I just went to sites which are infested with CWS, CoolWWW, Hitbox, Tribalfusion, LopDotCom, Zestyfind and got re-infected with those pests. I used the PestPatrol in an effort to prove to myself that it really is as good as it seems to be......I've been testing it all of last week. I use a "test" computer" for trying out software on viruses...don't try to get infected unless you have a "garbage computer" you don't care about.
I'm back already. It took me less than 10 minutes to get my junk PC infected with CoolWWW, Cool Web Search, about:blank, HomeOldSp, and virtually all of the current spyware as well as some other bothersome hijacking trojans.
I updated PestPatrol, and it removed the new versions of all of the stuff I just deliberately got my "test" PC infected with. It even found a few traces left behind by other programs.
My ABSOLUTE favorite for removal of spyware, adware, and trojans is PestPatrol, which you can order from the manufacturer by clicking this link.
My ABSOLUTE favorite for PREVENTING future invasions of spyware, adware, and trojans is GhostSurf Pro, which you can order from the manufacturer by clicking the link at the bottom of this page.
My favorite anti-virus software is AVG, which you can get for free from the manufacturer by clicking the appropriate link in the April 21, 2004 post below.
My other favorite anti-spyware, anti-adware program is Ad-aware 6.0 by Lavasoft and is also free. You can get from the manufacturer by clicking on the link in the April 21, 2004 post below.
It's an awful feeling to switch on your PC and see that your choices have been changed by someone with malicious intent. My new hobby is finding ways to stay ahead of these cockroach-like programmers. When I find new programs to combat them, I test them and report the results here.
Be sure to check the April 21, 2004 post for more information on the free programs.
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Here's an updated post with new information on:
REG.Startpage.CO trojan
CWS.GoogleMS.3
js.search.cc
about:blank
each of the four items above indicates the presence of trouble in your PC. They are renewed or recycled forms of Cool Web Search, CoolWWW, Zestyfind, and other home page hijackers which never seem to go away. You CAN get rid of them, but be certain that you order the software from SECURE links. Otherwise, you're just downloading more trouble. Only order or download software from the manufacturers. I've placed secure links here to assure that you don't get fooled into downloading viruses or spyware.
I've found and installed a good piece of software which digs out the roots of those pests and quarantines them. It wasn't free but it is very effective. It's called PestPatrol.
I just went to sites which are infested with CWS, CoolWWW, Hitbox, Tribalfusion, LopDotCom, Zestyfind and got re-infected with those pests. I used the PestPatrol in an effort to prove to myself that it really is as good as it seems to be......I've been testing it all of last week. I use a "test" computer" for trying out software on viruses...don't try to get infected unless you have a "garbage computer" you don't care about.
I'm back already. It took me less than 10 minutes to get my junk PC infected with CoolWWW, Cool Web Search, about:blank, HomeOldSp, and virtually all of the current spyware as well as some other bothersome hijacking trojans.
I updated PestPatrol, and it removed the new versions of all of the stuff I just deliberately got my "test" PC infected with. It even found a few traces left behind by other programs.
My ABSOLUTE favorite for removal of spyware, adware, and trojans is PestPatrol, which you can order from the manufacturer by clicking this link.
My ABSOLUTE favorite for PREVENTING future invasions of spyware, adware, and trojans is GhostSurf Pro, which you can order from the manufacturer by clicking the link at the bottom of this page.
My favorite anti-virus software is AVG, which you can get for free from the manufacturer by clicking the appropriate link in the April 21, 2004 post below.
My other favorite anti-spyware, anti-adware program is Ad-aware 6.0 by Lavasoft and is also free. You can get from the manufacturer by clicking on the link in the April 21, 2004 post below.
It's an awful feeling to switch on your PC and see that your choices have been changed by someone with malicious intent. My new hobby is finding ways to stay ahead of these cockroach-like programmers. When I find new programs to combat them, I test them and report the results here.
Be sure to check the April 21, 2004 post for more information on the free programs.
Friday, May 21, 2004
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Dear Amy,
Positive things are going on in appropriate places. Important people who are powerful know about it. It will get better. In your situation, I would use the phone and call someone like...... me! I hope that you are aware that the Ros....s and the Mah........s have my address and phone number. You are not prohibited legally from calling me, and the mediator told your mother that it was good for you to have regular contact with me.
There are pay phones everywhere and you can tell the operator to make it a "collect call". Your friends want to help you also.
NO ONE can monitor every pay telephone, and your closest friends also have secure telephones as well as cell phones.
People in your neighborhood want to help you, people in Vernon Hills want to help you, people in Gregg's Landing want to help you, people in Libertyville want to help you...........you have made a lot of friends and they want to help you. You are a wonderful person to have made so many friends....you must allow them to help you if it becomes necessary.
Keep strong and hold on to your inner being and your spirit and who you are. You ARE the better person, and your personal power and strength may unnerve them so they will try to diminish, intimidate, and control you with fear and threats. Don't be bullied or frightened. Stay centered. Stay in control of you. Your inner self is telling you what's right and what's not. Listen to it. Believe in yourself.
Talk with your friends and be very honest with them about everything. Do not hide ANYTHING. You need to have a network of friends who will help you. You are a wonderful person and the community is willing and ready to help you. You are always welcome here. LJHS gives ACT's. I've already spoken with them.
I love you!!
Daddy
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Dear Amy,
Positive things are going on in appropriate places. Important people who are powerful know about it. It will get better. In your situation, I would use the phone and call someone like...... me! I hope that you are aware that the Ros....s and the Mah........s have my address and phone number. You are not prohibited legally from calling me, and the mediator told your mother that it was good for you to have regular contact with me.
There are pay phones everywhere and you can tell the operator to make it a "collect call". Your friends want to help you also.
NO ONE can monitor every pay telephone, and your closest friends also have secure telephones as well as cell phones.
People in your neighborhood want to help you, people in Vernon Hills want to help you, people in Gregg's Landing want to help you, people in Libertyville want to help you...........you have made a lot of friends and they want to help you. You are a wonderful person to have made so many friends....you must allow them to help you if it becomes necessary.
Keep strong and hold on to your inner being and your spirit and who you are. You ARE the better person, and your personal power and strength may unnerve them so they will try to diminish, intimidate, and control you with fear and threats. Don't be bullied or frightened. Stay centered. Stay in control of you. Your inner self is telling you what's right and what's not. Listen to it. Believe in yourself.
Talk with your friends and be very honest with them about everything. Do not hide ANYTHING. You need to have a network of friends who will help you. You are a wonderful person and the community is willing and ready to help you. You are always welcome here. LJHS gives ACT's. I've already spoken with them.
I love you!!
Daddy
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Thursday, May 20, 2004
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Dear Amy,
Just a quick note to tell you how much I love you. You are deeply and dearly loved by me, and there is no reason for you to ever doubt your own worth, your value, and your being. YOU ARE LOVED and CARED ABOUT by me, and you are still the better person. You always were, and always will be. No one can take that away from you. I am horrified that anyone would want to.
I celebrate your indviduality, your innovative mind, your intellect, your love, your imagination, your spirit, your innate goodness, and your many other substantial abilities, and your beauty...internal and external. If others can't see those qualities, or worse, try to crush them and erase them, then you already know what kind of people those are, and you know that it better to step around dog poop than in it.
I've been out taking pics of La Jolla today, and will reduce their size so that I can post them here.
I've been thinking about you all day, hoping that you are doing well. In the meantime, here are a few photos of our little world of La Jolla. You can also look LJ up online if you are permitted to so.
Here are a few copies of something you gave me for Father's day a long time ago (it seems like a long time ago.
Always remember that YOU ARE A TRULY AMAZING AND LOVABLE, WONDERFUL DAUGHTER!
More pics to follow. I have to reduce the size of the ones I took today.
img src="http://bubdaddy.blogspot.com/La Jolla Bishop;s sunset.jpg" />
I love you,
Bub
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Dear Amy,
Just a quick note to tell you how much I love you. You are deeply and dearly loved by me, and there is no reason for you to ever doubt your own worth, your value, and your being. YOU ARE LOVED and CARED ABOUT by me, and you are still the better person. You always were, and always will be. No one can take that away from you. I am horrified that anyone would want to.
I celebrate your indviduality, your innovative mind, your intellect, your love, your imagination, your spirit, your innate goodness, and your many other substantial abilities, and your beauty...internal and external. If others can't see those qualities, or worse, try to crush them and erase them, then you already know what kind of people those are, and you know that it better to step around dog poop than in it.
I've been out taking pics of La Jolla today, and will reduce their size so that I can post them here.
I've been thinking about you all day, hoping that you are doing well. In the meantime, here are a few photos of our little world of La Jolla. You can also look LJ up online if you are permitted to so.
Here are a few copies of something you gave me for Father's day a long time ago (it seems like a long time ago.
Always remember that YOU ARE A TRULY AMAZING AND LOVABLE, WONDERFUL DAUGHTER!
More pics to follow. I have to reduce the size of the ones I took today.
img src="http://bubdaddy.blogspot.com/La Jolla Bishop;s sunset.jpg" />
I love you,
Bub
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Wednesday, May 19, 2004
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Dear Amy,
Here's me last Sunday in a town called Lemon Grove, where in many cases, the pickup trucks are larger than the houses, as you will see in subsequent posts. On the back of this giant truck is a decal which says "Sucking gas and hauling a**".
You can't tell from this angle, but the truck is actually longer than the house!!
(That's a Deltec Cozmo insulin pump - not a cell phone. I've been improving my overall health and wellness with that little insulin pump!!)(Also, I don't have ANY money for a cell phone - and no one needs to contact me with such urgency that they can't simply leave a message on the answering machine)
Laura and I are debating whether or not we should be going back to Idyllwild this weekend, or just staying around La Jolla, soaking up the sun and the sea.
We've got masks, snorkels, and fins but the water is still too bloody cold for the likes of us!! It's as cold or colder than Lake Michigan is.....that's one little detail which often overlooked by those who admire the beauty of California(especially ME!!). Still, in a month it will be relatively comfortable to swim in. The surfers all wear wetsuits and they spend as much of the year as they can in the Pacific.
I love this place and all of its diversity and activity, but I miss thunderstorms, which don't occur along the coast.
"Ohhhh give a home among the gum trees,
with lots of plum trees,
A sheep or two and a kangaroo,
clothesline out the back,
veranda out the front
and an old rocking chair!"
I forgot the name of the band that sang that. Do you remember? Never mind, I just remembered that it was "Bullamakanka"
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gotta go get a haircut...........more pics to follow.
With all of my love
Bub
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Dear Amy,
Here's me last Sunday in a town called Lemon Grove, where in many cases, the pickup trucks are larger than the houses, as you will see in subsequent posts. On the back of this giant truck is a decal which says "Sucking gas and hauling a**".
You can't tell from this angle, but the truck is actually longer than the house!!
(That's a Deltec Cozmo insulin pump - not a cell phone. I've been improving my overall health and wellness with that little insulin pump!!)(Also, I don't have ANY money for a cell phone - and no one needs to contact me with such urgency that they can't simply leave a message on the answering machine)
Laura and I are debating whether or not we should be going back to Idyllwild this weekend, or just staying around La Jolla, soaking up the sun and the sea.
We've got masks, snorkels, and fins but the water is still too bloody cold for the likes of us!! It's as cold or colder than Lake Michigan is.....that's one little detail which often overlooked by those who admire the beauty of California(especially ME!!). Still, in a month it will be relatively comfortable to swim in. The surfers all wear wetsuits and they spend as much of the year as they can in the Pacific.
I love this place and all of its diversity and activity, but I miss thunderstorms, which don't occur along the coast.
"Ohhhh give a home among the gum trees,
with lots of plum trees,
A sheep or two and a kangaroo,
clothesline out the back,
veranda out the front
and an old rocking chair!"
I forgot the name of the band that sang that. Do you remember? Never mind, I just remembered that it was "Bullamakanka"
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gotta go get a haircut...........more pics to follow.
With all of my love
Bub
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Tuesday, May 18, 2004
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Another re-issue of a tired old Home Page HiJacker is going around. It's called: REG.startup.CO trojan. The same pest exists with slightly different names, but its goal is to take control of your homepage.
I was surprised that AVG didn't detect it. It was discovered by EZTRUST Anti Virus which you can download from Computer Associates by clicking on this link
I don't understand why people think we will buy things from their websites if they screw up our computers. For more on defending your PC, scroll down to the April 21, 2004 post.
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Another re-issue of a tired old Home Page HiJacker is going around. It's called: REG.startup.CO trojan. The same pest exists with slightly different names, but its goal is to take control of your homepage.
I was surprised that AVG didn't detect it. It was discovered by EZTRUST Anti Virus which you can download from Computer Associates by clicking on this link
I don't understand why people think we will buy things from their websites if they screw up our computers. For more on defending your PC, scroll down to the April 21, 2004 post.
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Monday, May 17, 2004
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Hi Amester!
I just heard a really cool song called "California" on the internet. It touched on many things I think you'd like including "the 101". Laura and I have driven down "The 101", also known as the Pacific Coast Highway, or just "PCH". It winds along the coast, through some very beautiful country.
As always, beautiful places attract too many people, so there are a lot of surf board stores, skate board stores, stores which rent those little two-wheel Segway things, taco shops, and other things on the way, but since they seem "UNIQUE" to the sunny outdoor culture of the California coast, I find them more a curiosity than an annoyance.
I enjoyed the song so much that I looked up the lyrics. They resonate with purpose and the strength and courage of the simple decision "to go to California". As one who has done it, I can say that leaving you was the only difficult part of "going to California" and that leaving you there in her clutches was THE most difficult thing I have ever had to do in my entire life. I knew that I couldn't help you, or even help myself until I recovered from the consequences of her evildoing, and from her continual verbal and emotional abuse.
Because she had lied to misuse the law to her advantage, she could prevent us from having anything which resembled a normal relationship. I had to either stay and allow her to continue to spit in my face, or leave and try to recover from the total, overwhelming shock and devastation of losing you and being legally dispossessed of my property.
During the few meetings she permitted us to have, she took cruel pleasure in humiliating me and abusing me in front of you, and in front of the patrons of the public places in which she allowed us to meet for a few minutes every two or three weeks. Because she controlled those meetings and could end them at any time, I was powerless. To paraphrase: "Power corrupts, and absolute power corrupts absolutely". She was absolutely corrupted by the power she had perjured herself to obtain.
I had to leave that endless, constant abuse which your mother enjoyed inflicting on both of us, and I had to find a place and a way to rebuild myself, in the hope that we would be able to reunite soon. The owls are flying!! They will keep flying until our lives are normal again. I love you and intend to make certain that you know that.
For most people, the hardest part of going to California is simply getting a ticket on JetBlue and packing their bags - I had to leave you, the person I loved more than all others and all else. I saw you crying as your mother sped away into the night, and I cried too. I saw that you were able to manage a tiny "goodbye" wave, and I knew that you did so at the risk of having your mother scream at you again.
For a time, I believed that you had "thrown me away" also, because you never called, you hardly ever wrote, and except for one item I sent you, you never acknowledged any of the letters or things I sent to you.
Then I sensed that your abrupt silence had all of the "signatures of your mother's handiwork" on it, and I decided to learn how to create an internet presence which you might find someday. I told myself that all of the time we had spent together and all of the little adventures we had gone on together, and all of the love we had experienced together could not possibly have died so abruptly. I remembered the kiss on the envelope.
I learned how to create this site, and have been writing to you here ever since. I hope that someday you find it, and I hope that your mother and her new husband find it too, so that they may have a sense of the horror of the loss she has inflicted on us both.
I am healthier now, stronger now, happier now, and am only missing you to make my life whole again. If I were permitted to, I would send you an airline ticket. As you know, I don't have much money, but I could help you to get here, and you would be well cared for after you arrived, and for as long as you wanted to stay. You would love the freedom of your life here.
Laura is a kind, freedom-loving, free spirit who has come to know you from my stories about the things you and I did and shared together and the special relationship we had. She wears her bright red/orange/green/yellow Oakleys and zooms around in the sun in her bright blue Miata, her curly red hair flying in the wind.
She has made it abundantly clear that our guest room is yours for as long as you'd care to stay. It has a private bathroom, a separate TV/cable modem hookup and all of the other goodies. We're four blocks from the Pacific, and very close to the high school too. Our next door neighbor has a daughter about your age who is a cheerleader at the high school.
CALIFORNIA (lyrics by Phantom Planet)
We've been on the run
Driving in the sun
Looking out for number one
California here we come
Right back where we started from
Hustlers grab your guns
Your shadow weighs a ton
Driving down the 101
California here we come
Right back where we started from
California (California...) here we come
On the stereo
Listen as we go
Nothings gonna stop me now
California here we come
Right back where we started from
Pedal to the floor
Thinking of the roar
Gotta get us to the show
California here we come
Right back where we started from
California (California...) here we come
As I said, the lyrics are powerful, and filled with resolve, and sound like the anthem of a person who's decided to go to California, and they mean a lot to me, on many levels.
I never know if you're able to read anything I write to you, but I will continue to write to you here
I love you,
Bub
(soon, I'll post a photo of me taken yesterday...I hope that you see it someday.)
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Hi Amester!
I just heard a really cool song called "California" on the internet. It touched on many things I think you'd like including "the 101". Laura and I have driven down "The 101", also known as the Pacific Coast Highway, or just "PCH". It winds along the coast, through some very beautiful country.
As always, beautiful places attract too many people, so there are a lot of surf board stores, skate board stores, stores which rent those little two-wheel Segway things, taco shops, and other things on the way, but since they seem "UNIQUE" to the sunny outdoor culture of the California coast, I find them more a curiosity than an annoyance.
I enjoyed the song so much that I looked up the lyrics. They resonate with purpose and the strength and courage of the simple decision "to go to California". As one who has done it, I can say that leaving you was the only difficult part of "going to California" and that leaving you there in her clutches was THE most difficult thing I have ever had to do in my entire life. I knew that I couldn't help you, or even help myself until I recovered from the consequences of her evildoing, and from her continual verbal and emotional abuse.
Because she had lied to misuse the law to her advantage, she could prevent us from having anything which resembled a normal relationship. I had to either stay and allow her to continue to spit in my face, or leave and try to recover from the total, overwhelming shock and devastation of losing you and being legally dispossessed of my property.
During the few meetings she permitted us to have, she took cruel pleasure in humiliating me and abusing me in front of you, and in front of the patrons of the public places in which she allowed us to meet for a few minutes every two or three weeks. Because she controlled those meetings and could end them at any time, I was powerless. To paraphrase: "Power corrupts, and absolute power corrupts absolutely". She was absolutely corrupted by the power she had perjured herself to obtain.
I had to leave that endless, constant abuse which your mother enjoyed inflicting on both of us, and I had to find a place and a way to rebuild myself, in the hope that we would be able to reunite soon. The owls are flying!! They will keep flying until our lives are normal again. I love you and intend to make certain that you know that.
For most people, the hardest part of going to California is simply getting a ticket on JetBlue and packing their bags - I had to leave you, the person I loved more than all others and all else. I saw you crying as your mother sped away into the night, and I cried too. I saw that you were able to manage a tiny "goodbye" wave, and I knew that you did so at the risk of having your mother scream at you again.
For a time, I believed that you had "thrown me away" also, because you never called, you hardly ever wrote, and except for one item I sent you, you never acknowledged any of the letters or things I sent to you.
Then I sensed that your abrupt silence had all of the "signatures of your mother's handiwork" on it, and I decided to learn how to create an internet presence which you might find someday. I told myself that all of the time we had spent together and all of the little adventures we had gone on together, and all of the love we had experienced together could not possibly have died so abruptly. I remembered the kiss on the envelope.
I learned how to create this site, and have been writing to you here ever since. I hope that someday you find it, and I hope that your mother and her new husband find it too, so that they may have a sense of the horror of the loss she has inflicted on us both.
I am healthier now, stronger now, happier now, and am only missing you to make my life whole again. If I were permitted to, I would send you an airline ticket. As you know, I don't have much money, but I could help you to get here, and you would be well cared for after you arrived, and for as long as you wanted to stay. You would love the freedom of your life here.
Laura is a kind, freedom-loving, free spirit who has come to know you from my stories about the things you and I did and shared together and the special relationship we had. She wears her bright red/orange/green/yellow Oakleys and zooms around in the sun in her bright blue Miata, her curly red hair flying in the wind.
She has made it abundantly clear that our guest room is yours for as long as you'd care to stay. It has a private bathroom, a separate TV/cable modem hookup and all of the other goodies. We're four blocks from the Pacific, and very close to the high school too. Our next door neighbor has a daughter about your age who is a cheerleader at the high school.
CALIFORNIA (lyrics by Phantom Planet)
We've been on the run
Driving in the sun
Looking out for number one
California here we come
Right back where we started from
Hustlers grab your guns
Your shadow weighs a ton
Driving down the 101
California here we come
Right back where we started from
California (California...) here we come
On the stereo
Listen as we go
Nothings gonna stop me now
California here we come
Right back where we started from
Pedal to the floor
Thinking of the roar
Gotta get us to the show
California here we come
Right back where we started from
California (California...) here we come
As I said, the lyrics are powerful, and filled with resolve, and sound like the anthem of a person who's decided to go to California, and they mean a lot to me, on many levels.
I never know if you're able to read anything I write to you, but I will continue to write to you here
I love you,
Bub
(soon, I'll post a photo of me taken yesterday...I hope that you see it someday.)
Sunday, May 16, 2004
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Dear Amy,
Just a few thoughts via "Owl" for you on an unusual gray day in La Jolla. I think about you every day and wonder how you're getting on . There is no difference between you and the children whose faces we see on milk cartons every day. You have been "legally kidnapped" by your mother, who is like an evil witch, holding the beautiful princess prisoner in her castle.
I know that it is a nice castle because she and her attorneys somehow contrived to steal it from me at a time when I was in no mental, emotional, or physical condition to make any decision including what to eat and what time to go to bed, much less how to dispose of my half of the marital estate. The prescriptions I was taking rendered me incapable of making sound, informed decisions......and she and her attorney knew it.
Doctors, psychiatrists, and legal people I've consulted with since arriving in California are unanimous in their disbelief that any government in modern America allowed such a legal connivance to occur. Enough said about that(for the time being).
It is difficult to write these letters because I have the feeling that you will never see them, but I will keep writing here because it is the only way I have of expressing my thoughts and my love for you.
I would love it if you could find a way to contact me by email, letter, or AIM instant messenger. If you are careful, use a PC at a library or a friend's home and "cover your tracks", you can contact me without fear of more reprisal from your mother or her new husband. You are a teenager and certainly old enough and smart enough to be able to write a letter, make a phone call, or send an email.
Since you don't seem to ever see these statements, they seem to be without purpose, but I feel that they are therapeutic for me, and I continue to hold the hope that you will be able to read them one day, and you will know that I never stopped loving you and that I never gave up in spite of what she may have done or told you.
I love you, miss you, want to re-establish the relationship with you that we had (given allowances for the time she's stolen from us and given the fact that you are no longer a little girl, and given the fact that I have now certain limitations which affect the things I can do. They won't be apparent, but I'll tell you about them when we meet).
I'll send you more letters by US Post, but inasmuch as your mother and the new guy apparently intercept the mail I send you and dispose of it, or prevent you from receiving it, I think that "Owls" may be the better way of expressing my thoughts and feelings. I have sent you this email address previously but I'm certain that they've intercepted that information and have denied you access to it, or threatened you, your security, your well-being and your safety.
Given the nature of inevitability, I feel that someday you may be curious to see if any information about you is on the internet. If and when you finally make that search, you will find this place and finally will know that I have been trying to keep you in my life and they have been trying to make you think that I have given up on you. I haven't done that, and I NEVER will!! I've been sending you a steady stream of postcards, letters, gifts of all sorts, and have only received a few highly censored letters which fail to acknowldge 99.5% of what I've sent you.
The fact that they intercepted the card I sent you for Christmas and presumably took the money from it still astounds me, but the reality of your situation is that nothing those two do should astound anyone. I'm sorry that you have had to endure life with them for these past years. You have a lot invested in your high school life and activities, but if things become intolerable, you can always stay in La Jolla with us. LJ High is only a few blocks away, as is the ocean.
No matter what she has been telling you.....you DO have GOOD, STRONG, VIABLE choices available to you.
I love you Amy,
Bub
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Dear Amy,
Just a few thoughts via "Owl" for you on an unusual gray day in La Jolla. I think about you every day and wonder how you're getting on . There is no difference between you and the children whose faces we see on milk cartons every day. You have been "legally kidnapped" by your mother, who is like an evil witch, holding the beautiful princess prisoner in her castle.
I know that it is a nice castle because she and her attorneys somehow contrived to steal it from me at a time when I was in no mental, emotional, or physical condition to make any decision including what to eat and what time to go to bed, much less how to dispose of my half of the marital estate. The prescriptions I was taking rendered me incapable of making sound, informed decisions......and she and her attorney knew it.
Doctors, psychiatrists, and legal people I've consulted with since arriving in California are unanimous in their disbelief that any government in modern America allowed such a legal connivance to occur. Enough said about that(for the time being).
It is difficult to write these letters because I have the feeling that you will never see them, but I will keep writing here because it is the only way I have of expressing my thoughts and my love for you.
I would love it if you could find a way to contact me by email, letter, or AIM instant messenger. If you are careful, use a PC at a library or a friend's home and "cover your tracks", you can contact me without fear of more reprisal from your mother or her new husband. You are a teenager and certainly old enough and smart enough to be able to write a letter, make a phone call, or send an email.
Since you don't seem to ever see these statements, they seem to be without purpose, but I feel that they are therapeutic for me, and I continue to hold the hope that you will be able to read them one day, and you will know that I never stopped loving you and that I never gave up in spite of what she may have done or told you.
I love you, miss you, want to re-establish the relationship with you that we had (given allowances for the time she's stolen from us and given the fact that you are no longer a little girl, and given the fact that I have now certain limitations which affect the things I can do. They won't be apparent, but I'll tell you about them when we meet).
I'll send you more letters by US Post, but inasmuch as your mother and the new guy apparently intercept the mail I send you and dispose of it, or prevent you from receiving it, I think that "Owls" may be the better way of expressing my thoughts and feelings. I have sent you this email address previously but I'm certain that they've intercepted that information and have denied you access to it, or threatened you, your security, your well-being and your safety.
Given the nature of inevitability, I feel that someday you may be curious to see if any information about you is on the internet. If and when you finally make that search, you will find this place and finally will know that I have been trying to keep you in my life and they have been trying to make you think that I have given up on you. I haven't done that, and I NEVER will!! I've been sending you a steady stream of postcards, letters, gifts of all sorts, and have only received a few highly censored letters which fail to acknowldge 99.5% of what I've sent you.
The fact that they intercepted the card I sent you for Christmas and presumably took the money from it still astounds me, but the reality of your situation is that nothing those two do should astound anyone. I'm sorry that you have had to endure life with them for these past years. You have a lot invested in your high school life and activities, but if things become intolerable, you can always stay in La Jolla with us. LJ High is only a few blocks away, as is the ocean.
No matter what she has been telling you.....you DO have GOOD, STRONG, VIABLE choices available to you.
I love you Amy,
Bub
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Friday, May 14, 2004
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Dear Amy,
Here are some owls for you: Their message is: "I love you and miss you every day."
Love,
Bub
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Dear Amy,
Here are some owls for you: Their message is: "I love you and miss you every day."
Love,
Bub
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Wednesday, May 12, 2004
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An old, but hated enemy is back in a new form! A Trojan Horse Home Page HiJacker is in circulation under the following name:
Startpage.4.AP
AVG will find it and quarantine it during its scheduled daily scan.
You can get AVG for free from the link on the April 21, 2004 post.
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An old, but hated enemy is back in a new form! A Trojan Horse Home Page HiJacker is in circulation under the following name:
Startpage.4.AP
AVG will find it and quarantine it during its scheduled daily scan.
You can get AVG for free from the link on the April 21, 2004 post.
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Tuesday, May 11, 2004
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The owls are like those in Harry Potter - they're messengers.
...bugfish" is .5 of what the captions from the Owls say
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The owls are like those in Harry Potter - they're messengers.
...bugfish" is .5 of what the captions from the Owls say
